I would climb trees pretending they were some sort of watchtowers, even had some of my lunches up there; some other times i'd lay on the grass looking at the sky imagining how could everything be different and feel fitted into a place where all I dreamed about could ever be possible. That subtle numbness that the dream brought did me well, made me feel unique, like i owned my space where peace and free will for imagination reigned.
For many years i had this therapy, of closing my eyes and pretend i was inside one of Miyazaki's films. I imagined how it would be to fall asleep in Totoro's furry belly, fly on Nausicaa's glider or feel myself in the clouds on Laputa's castle. I'd turn those characters and places real, they'd live in my bedroom and in my grandparents' house... I'd pretend i had a toad as a friend living in the reeds growing in my grandma's backyard. And in the lavender bushes were the home to a very serious kind of bees, with a very particular temper enough not to be disturbed.
But time passed by and it was time for change ...
Living in Macau brought me these great things. The access to good animation films in an early stage gave me the magic of imagination and pure and innocent creativity that all children should have.
What i remember the most from that place where i lived as a child are: the openings of stores where ever arose a joyous ceremony with dragon dancing and loud fire crackers through the smoke of incense; miniature temples carved in the walls between the buildings fraught offerings, fruit and incense sticks mostly. The gardens' lakes were always filled with water lilies floating carrying beautiful lotus flowers on their backs... all this in a very busy and chaotic city as... Macau.
My deepest wish goes to every children. I wish they'd feel inspired, they'd have a wild imagination to create something beautiful and the hope to reignite the human being in its essence, and not like it "supposedly" should be in society. I'd wish people would stop following stereotypes and be themselves, in their most purest concept.
I've got people telling me to stop behaving like a kid, because for them i'm too goofy, sometimes i feel that people don't take me as seriously as they should because of that. Well... they are wrong!
I have my responsibilities and i'm independent, i've got friends and i have fun with the things i like to do (even with i don't like to do i manage to have fun with). But don't ever ask me to stop "acting like a child", because i am not. I just keep the child in me alive. If a melody or an image takes me to "another planet", i let myself get carried away... we already live in the real world constantly and consciously. Those actions that are inherent to us are completed daily, so automatic that when I switch to the "Analog" mode is like breathing a breath of fresh air and where I can be myself without squinting.
Thank you, Hayao Miyazaki!